Saturday, February 18, 2006


I sometimes get overwhelmed by the actions of my oldest daughter. She makes choices that are not thought out or are just plain stupid. She makes these decisions for attention. She likes to be the center of everything and will do really stupid things to get that attention.
Thursday she chose to wear her father's knee brace because her knee hurt. The girl has never damaged her knee nor has any problem with joint disease. She weighs 100 lbs maybe and her father weighs 250. It was for attention. I asked her why asprin, tylenol or advil was not a better choice. I tried to explain to her that her that if she had a headache that a neck brace was not needed.
This morning Kelsey decided to throw up on the bathroom floor. She is not "sick" and I am not a mean mom. You could hear her making herself gag until she threw up. And throwing up in front of the toliet, and only on the tile floor takes talent. She did it for the attention and probably to get out of chores. She cleaned it up, and is now laying in bed.
Kelsey has a problem with making good choices. She has either bipolar or border line personality, the diagnosis is still up in the air. Could be both. She just got bad genes. We have her on medication and have had to have her hospitalized.
The stress in dealing with her is great. I don't know how to handle her sometimes. I wish that kids came with a magic button that would make them all better. My biggest fear is that she will be a teenage mother and that I will have to raise the child because she can't get her shit together and ruin her life.
Optimistic aren't I?

1 comment:

kymmie said...

You are a good and patient person.